Tuesday, April 20, 2010

suck it up or BLOW OFF

I have been contemplating blowing off my "career" for quite some time. It sort of feels like that relationship you've been in for way too long where all signs point to break up, but that little voice inside your head says "is waking up with someone mediocre better than not waking up with anyone at all?"

I've been in the online tech industry for 7+ years and at one time worked for one of the most revolutionary companies (sounds like Poogle). I've enjoyed some of the greatest perks (money) and made some of my best friends, but I've close to hated the "job" from Day 1.  I don't know if I just hate working in general or if I've just fallen into an industry that leaves me passion-less (i.e. that yucky feeling you get after really bad sex).  I mean seriously who cares about optimizing and monetizing video views and ads, increasing traffic, driving coverage and click-through rates, over-deliver and under-delivery. I'm clearly not saving lives or making the world a better place. I'm making the online world cluttered with more ads so my damn company can make a buck or two before it sinks for good or gets bought out by some company that thinks we're worth more than we actually are.  It's like standing on the sidelines at a wedding and forever holding your peace even though you know someone's getting the raw end of the deal.

The good news is in the last year I've found
my one true love, a small business that I've started with a friend, that involves all the fun and creativity my "career" has sucked out of me. The bad news is this venture won't be making career-like money for a long time, maybe never and for now it's my "cost center".

So now I'm trying to stay focused on taking steps towards blowing off my career for good,
but here is where I get stuck:

#1 No "affordable" insurance paid by my company. This is the year of "actively" starting a family* with the husband who is self-employed and can't put me on his insurance without mucho additional $$$$. *"actively" starting a family deserves an entire post of its own.

#2
Like many Americans, re-financing has become part of our everyday vernacular, but good luck trying to make it happen post job blow off. In today's economic times, the bank won't even look at you if you're unemployed.

I wish someone would have told me the American Dream = doing something that makes you miserable just so you can own property and go to the doctor.

Sigh.

1 comment:

  1. i vote that you quit! life is too short for crappy jobs and you'll have more time to focus on what makes you happy. blow this job off and tell us what happens after!

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